living at home

As a near 21 year old, and well into my college career, it's a damn shame and an absolute pain in the ass to still be living at home.

I don't know what i wouldn't give to be able to come and go freely, to bring the boy back to my own bed, or to stop worrying about using my vibrator during the day for fear that someone will hear the tell-tale buzz through my door.

I think that is one of the worst parts; when I'm feeling excited and I'm ready to go, you have no IDEA what a turn-off it is to be listening for your mother's footsteps in the hall beyond your room. I dread the 'knock-and-open-the-door-at-the-same-time' combo that is supposed to show a respect for your provacy while really giving you nothing but a split second heads up that hey, I'm busting in on you.

I've been lucky up to this point that i haven't been caught doing anything 'illegal'.

I've grown up in a household that frowns on everything having to do with sexual expression outside of marriage. We don't talk freely about dating, boyfriends and ESPECIALLY not sex, and if I were to mention birth control I would be out on the dourstep on my ass in an instant... which may be preferable to my current living situation but for the fact that I don't pay my tuition, my insurance... and although I have a relatively good part-time job, there's no way I could handly living on my own and paying my own shit when I have a full load of 400 level classes on my plate.

My little sister doesn't even know that I've gotten past second base... she once threatened to tell my mom that I had touched my boyfriend's penis as some sort of leverage to get what she wanted... which was annoying both for the fact that she would use that sort of knowledge against me and that I've rounded second base, and then third, and then home, and I've been running back around to second for quite some time.

I feel like I have to tell you a little of my life story and some background before I get to the fun and more interesting stuff, so bear with me for the first few posts while i establish my identity for you.

goodbye for now,
badlittlegoodgirl